“Luna, you okay?” She looked like she had been crying all night, which she was but she didn’t want anyone knowing.
“I’m fine, why do you ask?”
“Not to be rude or but you look horrible, was it a bad night for you?” Well, let’s think Luna lost her closest guy friend and she doesn’t see the love of her life everyday, of course it was a bad night. She couldn’t help but cry herself to sleep that night, she wanted and wished that she go outside and go to Aaron’s house, knock on his window and ask him to go outside with her…but she knew she couldn’t do that for a hundred reasons, main reasons are her parents won’t let her out but the other reason is seeing him after pretty much breaking up with him earlier that day.
“It was a bad night, but it will be fine. I just need a good day at school.” As she said that she saw Aaron and she couldn’t handle lying to herself and seeing him at the same time. She held Matthew’s hand again, this was worse than last time because she wanted Aaron to see her holding Matthew’s hand; instead she also got Oliver seeing her hold Matthew’s hand. She turned around to not look at Oliver while his eyes were fixed on her hand in Matthew’s hand. She immediately let go and she went to class.
“Wanna tell me what was all that about or am I to assume you are madly in love with me?” She couldn’t help but laugh, she didn’t mean to laugh but she did it anyway.
“Yes Matthew, I am madly in love with you after meeting you for a day. No, it’s more for someone to walk away from me, but in the process I let someone else down. Can we just focus on school for once?” She hoped for the best since she knew she wasn’t seeing Oliver at all the rest of the day to explain herself. She went through the whole day as if nothing was going wrong in her life until lunch.
During lunch, she sits with Matthew, Heather, and that entire group.
“Luna, are you dating anyone?” Heather was trying to start something, the question was what?
“Currently, no…why?”
“I heard you were dating two guys at once last year, is that true?” Thanks Aaron, though he said it would die during the summer, clearly it didn’t.
“No, not true, who told you that I was dating two guys at once so I can talk to them?” By talk, she meant destroy.
“Some random girl, she said she wished she was you because you have two guys in love with you while she couldn’t get her crush to notice her.” So someone was watching Luna? Who?
“Yeah, no. I mean I know one guy that was in love with me but he has also been my friend since 5th grade, the other guy I have no idea who she is talking about. Also, I don't like that I am being watched. Is my life that entertaining?” After she said that, she got up and left the cafeteria, she lost her appetite and she didn’t know what to do because she had no one to talk to. She walked to where her next class was, which was gym class so the locker rooms, she sat at the bench and stared at the sky. She thought about what’s a good song to sing during this trying time, she had nothing. All she kept thinking about was who, who was watching her and worse, quick to talk about it with anyone? She finally thought of a song to sing while waiting.
There's always gonna be another mountain/I'm always gonna wanna make it move/Always gonna be an uphill battle/Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose/Ain't about how fast I get there/Ain't about what's waiting on the other side/It's the climb
“You can really sing!” Luna opened her eyes and saw Tabitha standing in front of her.
“Hey Tab, yeah I can really sing, I learned a couple of years ago. Thanks for the compliment.”
“Luna, I’m sorry.”
“Sorry for what? What’s up?”
“I thought Aaron loved you when you pretty much had your boyfriend and it made me jealous and angry and I saw you this morning holding that guy’s hand again and I saw you look at Aaron and another guy and I said it out loud to pick one. Someone heard me and started asking me a bunch of questions about you. I’m sorry, please forgive me.” She didn’t even think it would be anyone close to her, she couldn’t be mad at Tabitha but she was mad at her.
“So for starters, Oliver and I never dated so I had to lie that we broke up when you said it yesterday, he is the guy I love more than anything in this world. Aaron and I are just friends, close friends, I have been helping him with a lot of personal stuff and same with him helping me with some of my personal stuff. I can kind of understand why you would think Aaron loved me but he loves me like a little sister. I was holding my friend Matthew’s hand earlier because yesterday he said something strange so I wanted to make sure it was just a weird moment for us. If someone starts asking you questions about me, just tell them to ask me themself instead of asking my friends.” Woah, all the truths and all the pain just hit Luna all over again. She wished she could go home but she knew she couldn’t and that was a long walk.
“I guess my question is…do you think you could forgive me Luna?” Good question … scratch that great question!
“I don’t know because I understand where you were coming from but also I am mad at you for telling someone that told me that you told them. I want to forgive you but it will take some time because I feel hurt and I actually wanted to cry because someone was okay to talk about me that way but knowing it’s you, I just say I need time.”
“I understand, but please don’t tell Jessica, I don’t want a lecture about how God looks down on this kind of behavior.” That’s reasonable, she forgot how Jennifer was about God, she had nothing against God or anyone that worshiped him, she just never went to church or anything remotely close to church.
“I won’t tell her, but I think you should because it will end up to her eventually.” She learned that lesson by dealing with her mom. It was a good lesson to remember.
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