When they finally got to her stairs, she knew that she was going to have an interesting time when she gets inside.
“Luna, I want you to know one thing before you go upstairs and you probably crash into what you feel is nothing. You always have a friend by your side, if I have to be the only friend that knows then so be it, but don’t shut me out. I am always a call away and if I don’t answer right then and there, I will call you back.”
“Thank you Aaron for everything. I will be okay though. I’m not gonna crash or anything close to it, I blame the heat for draining me out faster.” Good excuse because it was true. She was ready to take a cold shower after all the heat on her body.
“My line stands, please don’t deal with everything alone.”
“I won’t, thank you.” She gave him a short hug and headed upstairs. She got inside and she could feel her body wanting to run away. She went to her room and turned on the radio to as high as she could go without having to deal with the neighbors downstairs complaining about the volume. She knew that she had several hours before anyone came home. Luna was ready to just collapse, instead she started the shower to make sure that she was going to have a calming time. She started playing songs that she knew by memory to sing to, she was singing as loud as she could while she was showering. She kept the bathroom door open to make sure that Chewie knew she was alive in the shower, as she sang she started crying. She couldn’t explain it but she was crying. She was seeing all the bad things in her head, from Lucas touching her for the first time to the first time he kissed her. She scrubbed harder on her skin to take the dirtiness away but she knew that nothing was going to stop those horrible memories. She finished her shower and was still singing, she heard Chewie howling, which meant someone was at the door. It was either the downstairs neighbors coming up to complain about the noise or someone is home extremely early. She rushed to put clothes on to see who was at the door. There was no one there, it was probably a squirrel that made Chewie freak out.
“My loneliness is killing me (and I)/I must confess I still believe (still believe)/When I'm not with you I lose my mind/Give me a sign/Hit me, baby, one more time”
Singing her heart out, she felt her inner Britney Spears showing. Luna was trying to keep her mind focused on only the songs. She didn’t want to focus on what was happening in her head. She was singing louder as she was going through the songs, she was glad that she learned how to burn her own CDs with limewire even though it did make her computer a little slow, she had a CD for all kinds of moods. She never skipped any of the songs on her CDs because she was glad she added all of them. She was ready for the next song, sometimes she would even forget what was the next song just for the surprise of it.
“'Cause we belong together/Who am I gon' lean on when times get rough?/Who's gon' to talk to me 'til the sun comes up?/Who's gon' take your place, there ain't nobody there/Oh, baby, baby, we belong together”
Luna was ready to hit the notes, the Mariah Carey notes… She was scared but ready. She took a breath to know for certain that she was going to hit the note without any issues but also to make sure she could hold the note for as long as Mariah Carey does. ‘Don’t scream, don’t want to get caught now do we.’ OH GOD! Stay out! Lucas’ words truly were making things harder for Luna to handle. She needed to focus on anything, to then realize she missed the note. Luna just ended up laying in bed the rest of the day until she heard the door unlock which meant it was 5 pm.
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